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So let me ask you this.
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What is something precious that you've lost?
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What is something or someone
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that you think you can't live without?
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And if you had the opportunity,
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would you go back to the time where you had them?
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And how much are you willing to give up for such a chance?
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Now these are all questions that today's character
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asked himself and subsequently answered.
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So let's take a deep dive into the dangers of obsession
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and how we can drive one mad
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through the eyes of the eccentric mage,
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Roswell L. Mathers.
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Hey, what's going on guys?
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My name is Nate.
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You're listening to the Otaku Liberation.
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I sure will be helping you break the chains
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that are holding you back in your life
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by connecting some biblical principles
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with themes from your favorite anime.
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And without further ado, let's get into it.
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So this today's verse that I wanted to cover
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going over Roswell himself is Matthew chapter 16 verse 26.
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And it says, for what will it benefit someone
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if he gains the whole world yet loses his life?
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Or what will anyone give in exchange for his life?
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And again, the verse is kind of self-explanatory,
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but I'm going to explain it anyway.
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But it poses the question is essentially,
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how much is someone willing to give up
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just so they can have the whole world,
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have the thing that they are striving so hard to get?
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It doesn't have to be literally the entire world,
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but whatever that level of success,
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whatever that dream or ambition or obsession that someone has,
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how much are they willing to sacrifice?
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How much are they willing to put on the line
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in order to achieve that?
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And let's say they do make it to their end goal,
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and they get whatever it is they have their sights set on.
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How much had to burn away?
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How much did they have to give up just to get there?
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Because at some point, you've got
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to start doing your way and pros and cons, right?
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Because we all know to achieve the things that we
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want to achieve in life, they do require sacrifice.
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That's just a rule of life, right?
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But how much sacrifice is really worth the goal in the end?
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Right?
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I mean, again, that's essentially what the question is.
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And for Roswell, he literally bet it all.
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He felt that no price was too great
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to achieve his ultimate goal, right?
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So to give you a little background on Roswell
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is this mage that's been alive for like 1,000-plus years
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or something like that.
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And he actually met the witch of breed, right?
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Echidna, who's the witch of breed,
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who I might have mentioned in previous episodes
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with Amelia and Subaru.
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And the whole sanctuary that Amelia had
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to go through her trials and the words,
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Subaru went through the trials as well,
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is Echidna's resting place.
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It's where her body is, right?
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She died, and that's where her body stored at.
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And she created the entire place.
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And Echidna is a very special person to Roswell.
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And that's because she saved him from essentially
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manna or mana, however you want to say it,
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mana poisoning in his own body.
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And essentially what it is, his own magical power
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was killing him.
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His body couldn't handle it properly.
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It would just build up in his body,
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and he had no way to get rid of it.
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But she showed him and taught him
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how to get rid of the excess mana, basically.
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So it's not going through this excruciating pain
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all hours of the day and night, right?
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And for him, that was the first time
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that someone understood what he was going through,
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because his parents didn't understand, his siblings,
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his other people around him didn't understand
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that what he was afflicted from.
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They just thought he was being extra different, weird,
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whatever you want to call it.
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They just thought he was just being Roswell.
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But no, he was always suffering silently,
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because no one understood what he was going through,
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so there was no point in him even trying to explain it.
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But Echidna knew exactly what it was,
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and she gave him the relief that he so desperately needed.
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And that was the beginning of this whole story
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that is Roswell, right?
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And it started off as, you know,
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just an innocent crush, right?
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He fell in love with her,
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but at some point it began to turn in the dark
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towards the line of obsession.
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that we are trying to strive for and accomplish,
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is that, you know, at least in my case, right,
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I know getting well that I don't try
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to be obsessed over things, and you know,
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that's not my end goal.
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It starts off as a genuine interest,
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and if left unchecked, I can easily spiral down
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and just be down that rabbit hole, right?
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And I know that that's just, that's how my personality is,
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how I've been my entire life.
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Once I'm really interested in something,
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everything else just ceases to exist, right?
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It's just the only thing I wanna do
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is the only thing I wanna focus on.
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that is a very good and commendable trait to have,
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because at the end of the day, I'm gonna get stuff done.
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But on the other hand, it's like,
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it's not a healthy way to live all the time, right?
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You can't keep your head down
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and completely ignore everything else
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that's not related to whatever thing you're interested in,
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you know, whether it's, you know, learning a new skill,
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even just be a hobby, right?
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Maybe I play Yu-Gi-Oh!
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If I was really obsessed with Yu-Gi-Oh!
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and it's the only thing I wanted to do with my life,
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then that's just not good, right?
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It's just not good.
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And so for Roswell,
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that one moment of kindness,
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I'm not saying in quotes,
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because Akina's not, she's not kind at all.
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Everything she does is to satisfy her own curiosity.
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She can really care less about other people.
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But in Roswell's time of need,
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she was there and she saved him.
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And that's how he looked at it.
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So my question is, who was it that saved you?
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And who did you feel that you couldn't live without?
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How did they make you feel?
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Who was that one person or people
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that you feel like without them in your life,
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you would have nothing, that you would be nothing, right?
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Because, and really I want to focus on that,
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with that latter part of that question.
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If you truly feel like you are nothing
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without somebody else, then that's not admiration,
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that's obsession at that point.
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Because you feel like your whole life revolves
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around that person or people or the thing.
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And you get your value from that.
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And that's not how it is.
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I mean, our value isn't in this world, right?
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Because again, God created us all to live with that purpose.
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And the purpose in mind, He says that we are His.
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And that's, you can't get any more valuable than that.
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The creator of everything says that you're His, right?
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But so often we get so tied up in what other people say
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and what other people think and what other people are doing.
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And we try to be who we're not.
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And you try to become other people
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because they seem to have a value,
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they seem to be accepted by society and norms
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and things like that.
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I don't wanna be like them.
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it's good to be inspired by other people.
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People who are further along in their journey than you are,
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who are doing the thing that you wanna do,
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it's good to be inspired, right?
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I mean, the thing that's good, genuine motivation.
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But at some point you have to,
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you have to put your own spin on things, right?
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You can't copy other people and expect to have
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the same success that they have because you're not them.
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Right?
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That's for them and that you have your own way
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about doing things.
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And so again, all this is about finding your own value
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and finding what makes you tick
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and not putting so much stock into what,
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into everything else outside, right?
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And yeah, for Roswell, it wasn't so much he devalued himself,
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it was just that he valued her more than everything else.
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And it kinda leads to my second point
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where his willingness to sacrifice everything.
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So again, like I said, Roswell is over a thousand years old,
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right, and Echidna ended up being killed
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by the Witch of Envy, who is the main antagonist
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of the entire series.
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So when that happened, Roswell set out to find a way
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to essentially resurrect Echidna,
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to put her soul into a suitable host, more or less,
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because that's what he's been doing with himself
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all these years.
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He's been creating new bodies and just transferring his soul
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to the new younger bodies so he can keep living
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essentially forever.
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And he was trying to find a way to replicate that for Echidna.
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But her being a witch, it makes it slightly more difficult,
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as you would imagine.
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But the interesting thing, at least the interesting thing
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for me when I was watching the anime
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and didn't research it for this episode,
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is that he was willing to give up his own life
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in the lives of those close to him
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just to try to resurrect Echidna.
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And this is what I mean by that.
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So, kids point, I'm sure you guys know by now,
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Yo-Su-Vu, who's the main character,
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his power is essentially, it's called return by death.
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He has death loops.
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When he dies, he goes to a previous point in time
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where he can essentially start over, right?
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And Roswaal knew about this power.
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He knew about the power that Zubru has,
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or I should say he had a very smart guess about it
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because Echidna gave Roswaal
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and another person named Beatrice
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these books called the Book of Knowledge
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or the Book of Wisdom, rather.
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And it essentially inscribed it.
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It tells him about the future and possible futures
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and things like that.
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And because of the everything that he's done
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since Echidna's death has been dictated by this book, right?
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And it one-on-one shows how far one's willing to go
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that they're losing all a sense of reason,
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all a sense of their own autonomy, really.
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I mean, he's just literally following this book verbatim.
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And part of what the book's telling him,
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it showed him that Zubru has this unique ability.
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And essentially what it is,
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it's not like he's rewinding time.
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Zubru's essentially going off into a different branch
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of a possible future.
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But he's going back to where the future branches off
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so he can try again.
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And Roswaal wanted to use this to his advantage.
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And part of that was he forced Zubru into a corner
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and where he had to choose to either save the sanctuary
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or Roswaal's mansion, because in both places,
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there were people who Zubru cared deeply for
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that through Roswaal's own orchestration,
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he, and again, I'm just,
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I'm going back to when I was watching this,
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Roswaal is terrible, but there was own way,
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I mean, he put a hit out on his own maids in his mansion
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and then he made it so where this super dangerous beast
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would come to the sanctuary
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and essentially made it, lifted up to Zubru,
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was like, I need you to basically become like me,
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is what he was telling him,
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to become so fixated on his goals
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that he would do whatever it took to achieve them.
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And ultimately that meant putting Amelia into a corner
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as well to break her down completely.
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And again, I'm trying not to spoil too much,
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you gotta watch the anime,
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cause I'm not doing it justice,
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but it's a whole thing.
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But the point I'm trying to make is that he went so far
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as to put all the people who have sworn loyalty to him,
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who love him as a mentor, companion, as a friend,
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he just all their lives mean nothing to him
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in the face of his goal,
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in the face of just at a attempt to resurrect the master.
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Again, none of this is guaranteed, right?
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He doesn't even know this is gonna work in the end.
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He doesn't even know if his master's gonna be able
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to come back, but all for the chance that it might happen.
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He's willing to do all of this.
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And this makes me ask the question,
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how far have you gone to follow your obsession?
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And how far are you willing to go?
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And these are heavy questions
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to really truly ask yourself, right?
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And I say obsession and not passion,
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because they're the kind of two sides of the same coin.
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There is a very thin line between the two.
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And sometimes they can seem to be like the same thing,
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in all honesty, but really how far are we willing to go
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for our obsession, for our passion,
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for what it is that we deem is right?
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Are we really willing to risk the lives of,
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not just ourselves, but our loved ones as well,
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of innocence, are we willing to sacrifice
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and give up everything that this world has to offer
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just to have a chance at that goal?
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Because again, like I said, Roswell,
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he didn't even know that this isn't gonna work or not.
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This is just a chance that it will.
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And he's willing to go this far.
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And so just imagine if he knew for a certainty
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that this would work, nothing would stop this man.
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Nothing and no one.
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And he'd kill for it, because we've seen it.
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You've seen it.
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And I just know for that, that's a,
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damn man, that's a dangerous mind space
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for anybody to be in, to get to the point
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where you're just like, where life means nothing to you
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without this thing, without this person, without this goal.
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And it's crazy, it's sad.
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It really is that we would even get that low.
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But I do know, man, life has a way of beating you down.
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And when you have that hope, when you hold onto that person,
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that thing, whatever it is for you,
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you just hold onto it so tightly.
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You just, you can't open your hand
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for anything else to come in.
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Because I truly, I do believe that we meet people,
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we go through things in life,
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we have opportunities for certain seasons of our life.
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And some of them are meant for us to carry on
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to the next one, and others aren't.
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I mean, there's plenty of people I've met in my life
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that I don't really keep in contact with now,
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because I mean, that part of my life is over.
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There's not so much that, okay, I don't need you anymore.
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So I'm just, you're just cut off.
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Like, no, it's just, we meet people,
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and sometimes it's not even for our benefit.
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Maybe it's for theirs.
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Maybe we're bringing something to them
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that they need to get through this season in life.
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And once we've fulfilled our role in the night,
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we just go on our separate ways.
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And that's all it is.
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I mean, that's all it is.
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That's part of the joys of life, right?
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Just being able to help each other out like that.
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And then, you know, sometimes you get those true,
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true like righted eyes, those kindred spears
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that you do bring on into the following seasons
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of your life, because now you're not so much
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helping each other, and now you're just growing together.
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You don't need to be there as a crutch.
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Now you guys are walking side by side,
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and hey, that's awesome too.
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But if you're so obsessed about the one that got away,
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whether it's a person, like you're talking about,
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oh man, if I would've just stayed with her,
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if I would've just stayed with him,
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then my life wouldn't be like this.
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Or the opportunity, like man, if I just would've
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taken that job interview, if I would've taken school
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seriously, then now maybe I would be better off here.
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If you worry so much about the what ifs,
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the what shoulda couldas,
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then you're just gonna miss everything else
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that's around you, everything else that's
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you know, right in front of you now, right?
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And honestly, that's what it was with Roswell.
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He was so blinded by his love and obsession over Echidna
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that he lost sight, honestly, of what it means
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to be human, first of all, and then two,
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of the truly great things that people are doing around him.
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But luckily for him and for us,
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I mean that spell can be broken,
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that hold of obsession can be broken.
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And in Roswell's case, it was,
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it started with him making a bet with Subaru
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that, you know, Subaru, that during this loop,
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he was going to save both the mansion and the sanctuary.
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Right?
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And then the bet was if Roswell lost,
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then he would have to truly support Emilia,
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and he would no longer try to do, you know,
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these heinous acts that he's been doing.
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And guess what happens?
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Subaru died and everyone lost.
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No, I'm kidding, I'm kidding.
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You know, Subaru ends up winning,
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and Roswell is forced to obey the contract
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that they made between the two of them.
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And so that was the first thing,
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is that now he no longer can act on his obsession.
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Right?
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And sometimes that's what it takes.
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Sometimes we had to put ourselves in a predicament
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where we physically cannot pursue the things
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that we're trying to pursue,
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because it's more of a detriment to us
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than it is a benefit.
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And it takes a lot of willpower to do it yourself,
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but, you know, it helps to have someone around
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who can keep you accountable.
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In the Roswell case, it's Subaru, you know,
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his enemy at the time.
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I mean, he's contractually obligated,
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but I'm not saying you got to go that far,
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but, you know, get someone who you trust
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to keep you on the straight and narrow,
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keep you, you know, honest,
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and can just keep you not just not going off
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on the deep end, right?
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Who can, you know, pull you back to reality
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every once in a while.
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And again, that's me all the time,
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but just enough when you say,
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hey, you're going too deep again.
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I need you to come back out and smell the roses.
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Say, okay.
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And then, so Roswell has Subaru for that,
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and he also has Rahm.
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So Rahm is one of the twin maids that Roswell has
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in his employment.
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And Rahm is actually in love with Roswell,
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which whether he knows or not,
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I think he does know just from their interaction.
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He's just, again, obsessed with a kidna,
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so he doesn't really care.
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But Rahm ends up burning the book of wisdom
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that was given to Roswell by a kidna.
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And again, back to Hull,
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you're being forced to move past,
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forced to move on.
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So since she burned the book,
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he has to rely on what he sees in front of him now.
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He doesn't, he's not going to this book
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for his every decision
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and seeing how things are gonna work out.
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Now he has to actually live life, right?
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He has to live and not be so obsessed with the past
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and not trying to orchestrate the future.
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He has to live in the present now.
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And part of that for him is that,
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hey, he's Hull Subaru.
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He still has his ambition,
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but he isn't blinded by it anymore.
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And I think that's a key thing.
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And for me, it kind of ties back to the concept of pride
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with both Borrow and Vegeta
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that I've covered previously on the podcast,
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is that in both of those cases,
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they were egotistical, arrogant guys
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who were all about themselves
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and their own strength and power and things like that,
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to the point where they were,
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they would look down on other people, right?
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But after they were subsequently humbled
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by the main character, right?
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The main character showed them
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that they are not the best around
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and that there are other people
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who can rival and even beat them at their own game,
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then it really put a perspective shift on them, right?
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And what I really like how the authors
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of both of the series handled these characters
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is it wasn't like a whole 180
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where all of a sudden they're super humble,
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they're nice guys now,
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they're pleasantly to be around, things like that.
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No, there's none of that.
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They're still as arrogant and fooling themselves
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and prideful as they were before,
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but now it's through a different mindset.
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Now it's, you say, I still think I'm the best,
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not because everyone else is beneath me,
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but because I'm gonna work hard
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and just be better than everyone else now.
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And they are able to recognize
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that other people are at their level,
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that no one else is beneath them,
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they just have to be better, right?
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And there's a clear difference in Roswell's case.
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So I'm still gonna try for my goals
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of reviving my master, the love of my life,
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so I'm trying to bring her back,
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but I'm not gonna go to such lengths
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that I went previously to get it done.
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I'm not gonna risk my life and everyone else's life
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just to have this one singular goal.
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And I think, and I really love that
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when authors do that for character,
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not just in anime, but in media in general, right?
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Where what makes the character themselves,
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just because they lost it,
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doesn't mean that they do a whole complete transformation
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all of a sudden, right?
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I mean, there's still qualities
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that make them who they are,
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but now they're just toned down slightly, right?
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Or they're using a different light.
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And for me, that's why I kind of called back
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to the whole thing about,
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the whole thing about obsession and passion
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or ambition, things like that,
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it's very easily dissuade one way or the other.
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And you can still have your ambitions,
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you can still be passionate about something.
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It's just that no, just know that that's not all there is.
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That's not the only thing that's out there.
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There's more out there for you.
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There's more out there that needs to be seen, right?
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That you need to do, that you need to experience.
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It's not all about what happened previously.
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Because again, what this whole season is about
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is about facing our past and overcoming it
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and being able to move forward from it, right?
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Not living in it, not forgetting about it, right?
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Because again, we have to accept it.
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Part of that is, part of accepting it
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is acknowledging that it happened.
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And it's really just taking what we can from it
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and moving on.
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So what can you take from your past relationships,
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from your past opportunities, good or bad, right?
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Whether they were good or bad or not.
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And how can you apply them in this moment,
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just this moment going forward,
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how can you apply those things?
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What have you learned about it?
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What can you internalize and reflect on about yourself
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and what can you do to move forward?
519
00:25:07,960 --> 00:25:12,960
I mean, that's, I mean, that's pretty much it, right?
520
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And then what can you do to be able to still follow
521
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your passion and your ambition and still aim for your goal,
522
00:25:20,600 --> 00:25:22,480
but not to be so tunnel visioned in
523
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and that you don't see anything else, right?
524
00:25:24,600 --> 00:25:27,800
And again, that's something I'm still working on.
525
00:25:27,800 --> 00:25:31,920
Getting better at it each and every day is to, you know,
526
00:25:31,920 --> 00:25:34,920
not so much find balance in life,
527
00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:37,080
but have an order to things.
528
00:25:37,080 --> 00:25:39,280
I think that's a better way to put it, right?
529
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Cause to truly be kind of great in whatever it is
530
00:25:43,600 --> 00:25:45,000
that you're striving to be,
531
00:25:45,000 --> 00:25:46,040
in order to achieve your goals,
532
00:25:46,040 --> 00:25:48,320
again, sacrifices have to be made, right?
533
00:25:48,320 --> 00:25:51,040
It's been, sometimes that means you don't have a,
534
00:25:51,040 --> 00:25:53,760
quote unquote, balanced life or your balance
535
00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:55,520
doesn't look like somebody else's balance
536
00:25:55,520 --> 00:25:57,760
cause they have a different life than you.
537
00:25:57,760 --> 00:26:01,320
But I do encourage you to take the time and order
538
00:26:02,240 --> 00:26:04,320
and put order in your life for the things
539
00:26:04,320 --> 00:26:06,240
that are the most important to you
540
00:26:06,240 --> 00:26:09,720
and have the time that reflects that right.
541
00:26:09,720 --> 00:26:13,080
And just again, this is always be by trial and error.
542
00:26:13,080 --> 00:26:14,320
You gotta figure it out.
543
00:26:14,320 --> 00:26:16,680
And again, you don't have to go to such extremes
544
00:26:16,680 --> 00:26:19,880
like Roswell did to get a binding contract
545
00:26:19,880 --> 00:26:23,280
and have somebody burn your stuff to get that idea across.
546
00:26:23,280 --> 00:26:26,520
But I do encourage you to find somebody who,
547
00:26:26,520 --> 00:26:30,080
who you trust enough and who will keep you honest
548
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and accountable.
549
00:26:31,240 --> 00:26:33,680
And just as a, you know, just as a, hey,
550
00:26:33,680 --> 00:26:34,960
just check it in and make sure you're doing
551
00:26:34,960 --> 00:26:37,080
what you're supposed to do or doing what you said,
552
00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:39,920
what you said that you were gonna do, right?
553
00:26:39,920 --> 00:26:42,200
Not so much, not someone who's gonna be
554
00:26:42,200 --> 00:26:44,280
over your shoulder all the time or overbearing,
555
00:26:44,280 --> 00:26:46,720
but these are things that you said you were gonna do
556
00:26:46,720 --> 00:26:48,600
and someone's gonna hold you to it.
557
00:26:48,600 --> 00:26:52,520
And because that end date is all about making you better
558
00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:55,080
and getting you better just one day at a time.
559
00:26:56,120 --> 00:26:59,240
But yeah, so that's all I got for you guys today.
560
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Just wanna thank you for tuning in to today's episode.
561
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And I pray that you got what you needed out of it.
562
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And hopefully you can learn something new about yourself.
563
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Feel free to subscribe to the podcast and leave a review.
564
00:27:09,680 --> 00:27:11,040
I love reading you guys' comments
565
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and it helps me improve each and every episode.
566
00:27:13,960 --> 00:27:16,040
And speaking of next episode,
567
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we're gonna be going over the other twin,
568
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the other twin that Roswell employed,
569
00:27:21,960 --> 00:27:24,320
who his name is Rem.
570
00:27:24,320 --> 00:27:26,160
I know, Rem, Rom, twins.
571
00:27:26,160 --> 00:27:27,480
Yes, that's funny.
572
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But in Rem's case,
573
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we're gonna look at the concept of regrets
574
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and how that affects us and continues to hold us back.
575
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So look forward to that.
576
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And I want you guys to always remember,
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you are the main character of your story
578
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and that story doesn't end until he says so.
579
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All right, be blessed.
580
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And I'll see you guys next time.
581
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Bye.
