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When you hear the word identity, what's the first thing that comes to mind?
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Is it something that we inherit or is it something that we discover for ourselves?
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Is it stagnant or does it change over time?
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Well, on this week's episode we're going to dive deeper into what identity is and how
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it shapes our lives with some help from an anime movie called Black Fox.
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Hey what's going on guys, my name is Nate and you're listening to the Otaku Liberation.
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I'm sure we'll be helping you break free from the chains that are holding you back in your
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life by connecting some biblical principles with themes from your favorite anime.
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And now this week we're doing something a little bit different because it's not a series
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with an actual anime movie.
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I figure every once in a while I'll throw an episode like this in because there's more
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than just series out there, right?
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There's a lot of different anime and some manga that haven't been animated yet that
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we can still learn from.
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So I hope you guys enjoy this special one.
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So without further ado, let's get into it.
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So this week's Bible verse that I want to tie into it is kind of to the whole premise
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of identity is 2 Corinthians chapter 5 verse 17 and it states, therefore, if anyone is
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in Christ, he is a new creation.
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The old has passed away and see the new has come.
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And essentially what it's saying is, you know, you know, who's in Christ, whatever you've
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done before, previous, your previous identity, your previous life, so to speak, is over and
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done with and you can begin a new, you can essentially start over.
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And in the way that that ties into is how we view ourselves and how we are conducting
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our own lives is that, you know, you may think you're stuck, you have to be stuck in a certain
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way because that's all you know, all you have known or all that you think you ever will
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know and something happens in your life where either, A, you decide to change on your own
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or something happens where that makes you, makes you change, you know, for good or for
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good or for bad.
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And that's kind of the beauty of our lives as people, right?
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Because we're not like normal animals out there who are essentially slaves to their
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instincts.
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We can change over time.
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We can grow, you know, people have different preferences as they get older, you know, any
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different, even down to our taste buds, because I think it's like what every seven years or
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something like that, our taste buds change.
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And you know, just, just thinking about that, something that you don't even have to think
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about can change that really that often.
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And the same thing can be said for you, right?
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What you know or what you thought you knew doesn't have to be the same that you know
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going forward.
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And I really believe that this, this was a main premise I, at least I picked up in a
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movie Black Fox.
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And so of course, what is this movie, right?
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So Black Fox premiered in back in 2019.
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And honestly, I had never heard of it before.
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So I saw it on Crunchyroll and it kind of popped up and it's about a young girl who's
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a descendant of ninjas, who is living in her old family home or a clan home, I should say,
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where she's being trained by her grandfather, because he hopes that she'll take over as
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the, as the head of the clan, right?
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But after a tragic attack on her family, the main character, whose name is Rika, she has
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to go on her quest for revenge after, you know, her family was double crossed and things
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like that.
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So I'm not gonna try not to spoil the movie too, too much for you guys, but that's kind
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of the background for it.
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And what I'm going to do for this episode, I'm going to break down three of the characters
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who had some type of identity crisis, more or less throughout the movie.
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The first one being the main character herself, Rika.
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The second one being the main antagonist named Lauren.
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And then the third being Lauren's daughter, Mia.
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So I'm gonna start off with, with Rika.
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And because again, you, since we spend the most time with her, we actually see her growth
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the most out of all three.
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And first I'm going to begin with her father.
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Her father's name is Alan.
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So like I said before, Rika is descended from a clan of ninjas, like straight up actual
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ninjas like you see in the, in the, in the flakes with, you know, the, the throwing stars,
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smoke bombs, all that fun stuff.
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And, and again, her grandfather is training her to be the next clan head because her,
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her father, her grandfather's son, Alan, decided he didn't want to be a ninja anymore.
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He doesn't, he doesn't want to live that life.
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Alan is instead a scientist, a very, very good one at that who's developed all types
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of different technologies that's just helped people progress.
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One of which is, are some androids that he designed to help people and be companions
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to humans.
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And it just helped with different, different aspects of life.
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Now Alan and his father, his father's name is Hue, I believe, at least I'm hoping I'm
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saying that right.
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You know, they, they, I guess they've come to terms with the way Alan wants to live his
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life, right?
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Because again, he's from, he's from the same clan of ninjas, but he decided, nope, I don't
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want to do that anymore because I don't want to kill people.
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I actually want to help people.
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And there's, I'm not going to say animosity because there wasn't really any animosity
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between the two, but it was, you could tell the grandfather would rather him be the head
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of the clan, but he seems to respect his decision on going off on his own, doing his own thing.
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And both of them want that for, for Rika.
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You know, Hue wants Rika to be the next head of the clan and Alan just wants her to do
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whatever she wants to do.
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Right.
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And for Rika, she wants to follow in her father's footsteps and being a scientist.
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I mean, she even applied to the same college that he, he went to.
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And that gets her seeing her dad's creations and just how much, really how much joy he
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gets out of it.
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And it really stuck with her for the longest time.
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And she, I guess she wants to just be like her dad, but in that same vein, she also enjoys
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being a ninja like her grandfather.
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She enjoys the sense that honestly the threat, the thrill of it.
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And she, she strives to live up to the expectations of, of both of them.
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Right.
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Those are two most important people in her life.
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And honestly, unbeknownst to her, she's kind of put that pressure on herself of trying
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to live up to their expectations, which again, they didn't place, they didn't put those expectations
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on her.
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She put it on herself.
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And I can speak from personal experience that it's the expectations you put on yourself,
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or at least the ones that you think other people are putting on you, or some of the
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heaviest ones to put that you feel just so tied down, so beat down, honestly.
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And you could honestly find yourself in a position where you think that you're, you're
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never good enough, that you're always falling short, that you're, you know, X, Y, and Z,
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whatever it may be.
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And it could, honestly, it's all just in your own head.
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And I know, I know for me personally, it was just always striving to be the best child
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that I could be for my parents.
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Because when I was younger, I saw how my older sibling was, and it was, it was a difficult
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time to say the least for them.
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I mean, they never took it out on me or anything like that by any means, but just for me seeing
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that and me wanting to just make them proud, you know, like any kid, I'm sure we all want
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to make our parents proud.
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But it was, for me, it was to the point where I was afraid to make mistakes.
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I mean, even just normal mistakes kids make all the time, you know, whether it's in school,
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you know, other kids, extracurriculars, whatever the case may be.
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And it was that fear of failure, which eventually led into my identity of trying to be a perfectionist
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to myself, you know, and just judging myself really, really harshly.
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And like if I didn't execute something the exact way that I thought I planned it out,
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then I would just beat myself, you know, not physically, calm down, but mentally and just
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kind of really pull myself through the wringer.
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And you know, I did that for years, just, you know, just did it for years.
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And again, they never did anything to put that idea on me.
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So it's not, it's not anyone.
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It was all me.
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And you know, I know there's other people out there who are like that, whether it's
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a parent, older sibling, it's a guardian, it's a mentor, or you could even just be yourself.
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But when you have this, this type of this mindset, this frame, this identity of, I have
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to be perfect.
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I have to be perfect.
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And you're sending yourself up for failure right from the get go, because none of us
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are perfect.
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No one on this earth outside of Jesus himself is perfect.
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We all have our flaws.
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We all have our shortcomings, some that we may know, others that we may discover later
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later down the road, just live in life.
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But it takes, it takes self awareness to be aware of those things and to say, and to say
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it's okay.
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I'm just the best thing you can say to yourself and to anyone is that it's okay.
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It's okay not to be perfect.
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It's okay to fail.
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Actually, I encourage you to fail that way you can learn from it and get better at it
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the next time.
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That's how we grow.
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And for a long time, it was a big struggle for me to come to terms with that and to realize
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it's okay to make mistakes.
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No one's going to, you know, bite your head off, right?
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As long as you learn from it, I mean, really learn, sit down and take a beat and say, okay,
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why didn't this work?
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Why didn't it work as well as you wanted it to?
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What are some things we could change if anything at all?
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And then you just kind of really just kind of sit and reflect about it.
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And no one else has to know easily.
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This is just your time, your, your self-reflection time.
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And it's really, I want to hammer home that you don't have to be like that.
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You don't have to be the same.
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You don't have to be this quasi perfectionist of yourself, right?
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Cause me, honestly, we're our own worst critics, we're our own, we're our own worst enemy.
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I know it's cliche.
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We say it all the time, but it's, it's the truth.
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Cause our minds are powerful, powerful things.
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And what we decide to think about and focus on is what's going to happen.
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And it is really, when you take that time to reflect and think about it, that's where
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the mindset shifts can start to happen.
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Where you go from being, you know, man, I got to execute it like this or else this is
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going to happen or else they're going to be mad at me or disappointed in me.
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Just that in the third to, okay, I wanted this to happen.
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It didn't quite happen the way I wanted to.
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What can I do to change if anything?
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And if not, okay, be, be cool with it.
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And we're going to move on to the next thing because you can't get that time back.
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You can't go back in time.
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And that's just, you know, we're not Thanos with the time, with the time stone, right?
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So we got, we have to move forward.
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And that's what Rika did later on in the movie towards the end.
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When she, she reflected back on her upbringing with her grandfather and her father, the two
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essentially the two sides of who she felt, who she was the whole time she was, she was
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trying to figure out which one to be one or the other.
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But she came to the reality that, you know, that she's the combination of both.
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She's you know, her father's child and she's her grandfather's grandchild, right?
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Who both loved and cared for cared for her since the beginning.
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And neither one of them would be disappointed in the way and whatever she decided to do,
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you know, they, they, they just want her to live her life and to live the best version
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of her life that she possibly can.
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And when she realized that and accepted it, because those are two, two different steps,
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right?
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Is one thing to realize it and to hear it and understand it.
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But it's another thing to actually accept it and apply it.
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And when she came to the realization, she was able to apply it to her own life.
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You know, I'm, I'm at the point now where I'm applying it, that, that mindset to understand
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all aspects of myself in my life.
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Before I understood it, I understood the different hats that I wore, you know, the son, the brother,
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the student, the employee, at one point, you know, the manager, the teammate, things like
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that, all the different hats that we may wear, you, it can, you can easily segment them or
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you feel like you have to be one at a time, but you got to realize that, you know, those
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are all just different aspects of who you are and you're doing yourself a disservice
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by not acknowledging them and not accepting them for what they are.
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So by, by not segmenting them, by realizing, okay, these are all just different aspects
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of me, how can I, you know, how can I mix and match, right?
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I can, I can mix and mix and match them and kind of bring them all into the same, your
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authentic self, because that, that is where your peace will be.
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That's where you're happening to me.
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Now that's, that's your identity.
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That's who you were called to be.
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You weren't just called to be someone's husband.
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You weren't just called to be someone's wife, someone's sister, someone's brother, you know,
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the list goes on.
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You were called to be who you are, you know, first name, last name, your first name, middle
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name, last name, whatever, you know, apply it to yourself, but cause you are a unique
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individual.
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No one else is the same.
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No one else will ever be the same.
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You mean even if you, even if you're like if you're twins, triplets, you know, from
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a multiple birth, you're still you.
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No one else is you, no one else will ever be you.
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You're one of a kind.
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And I think the sooner we begin to accept that the sooner we can, you know, move forward
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in our own purpose and in our life and just, just be happier, just be at peace, you know,
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and not trying to compare ourselves to other people and not being so harsh on ourselves
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when we don't live up to other people's expectations or what we believe other people's expectations
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are going to be.
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But when we understand who we are, which is a culmination of a lot of different, you know,
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a lot of different titles from our upbringing and things like that, once we come on a all
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that together and realize who we are at our core, then, you know, life is just life is
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golden at that point.
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I truly believe that.
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I mean, you're still going to have some hardships and some difficulties, but the peace that
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will come with that is, you know, nothing, nothing to laugh at.
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So and that's what Rika got.
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We got the guy at the end.
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She reconciled with herself and found that peace and that ultimately gave her the strength
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to continue fighting and, you know, go on to beat the bad guy.
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Right.
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Who speaking of is the next character we're talking about.
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And his name is Lauren.
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So Lauren was a scientist who, who actually worked with Rika's dad back, back when they
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were still colleagues.
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And Lauren's identity that he got just so miss-escrubed with was jealousy.
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He was jealous and envious of Alan because of his success in Alan's genius.
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Because again, Alan was, was well known, well renowned, you know, with not just in the scientific
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community, but actually out in the public eye as well for his inventions and different
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things like that.
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And Lauren felt like, you know, he, he felt like he, he, him being Lauren, Lauren felt
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like he deserved Alan's success instead of Alan.
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He deserved, he felt like he deserved to be where he's at.
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And that jealousy just blinded him to his own brilliance.
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I mean, cause he was, he was a super smart dude.
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There's some things he invented were just as good as Alan's in all honesty, but because
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he didn't get the fame and recognition that Alan got, he felt, he felt bitter and jealous
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towards him.
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And that led to him becoming obsessed with Alan's work.
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So obsessed that he, again, envy and jealousy are some of the most ruthless things that
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we can ever experience as humans.
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But Lauren became so obsessed with Alan's success that he essentially orchestrated the
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death of Alan and his father, Hue, which started this whole, started this whole series, started
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this whole chain of events in the movie.
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And not only that, it led to Lauren exploiting his own daughter for her, her special ability,
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because his daughter was a, is a, is a psychic, you know, she's a telekinetic.
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And so he used, used her as part of his experimentations to basically make her a living weapon for
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his own goals or his own end results.
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And you know, and he was so blinded.
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He was just so blinded that no, not even his own daughter recognized him as her father
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anymore, that he was just this mindless thing.
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I mean, he even went so far as to experiment on himself, to give himself similar abilities
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to his daughter, just to prove that he was better than Alan.
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Keep in mind who's dead now.
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Alan, Alan is dead at this point, but Lauren just has to prove that he's the superior,
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quote unquote, scientist and that, you know, all of the fame and glory is going to be his,
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you know, he just destroyed, like half a city block to prove it.
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And, and we're not careful.
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We can get so wrapped up into what other people are doing, into what other people's blessings
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are looking like that we, A, forget, we just forget our own, right?
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We know, and then B, we don't even see the ones that God has put in our lives.
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We get so, so focused, so fixated on what someone else has that we just completely ignore
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and even forget about the things that we already been blessed with and the things that are
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coming down the pipeline that we may not even be aware of, that we are not even going to
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get to experience because we're too busy worrying about what other people are doing and how
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they're living their lives.
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I mean, it's one thing to be concerned for people.
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It's one thing to be, you know, I mean, inspired, you can be inspired by someone else's blessing.
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Okay.
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Yeah, this is where I want to go.
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This is where I want to, where I want to be at in X amount of time.
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So when that becomes your soul focus, it's like, man, that should be me.
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That should have been me.
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That should have been mine.
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Why did they, how come they get it?
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How come they deserve it and I don't?
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We start going down that spiral path.
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I'm going down that real, real slippery slope.
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Then that's, that's when the, that's when the ugly comes out and that's when your blessings
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just stop coming because again, you don't even see them anymore.
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You're not even working on yourself.
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You're not living for your purpose.
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You're living for theirs.
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You living for their reward to their purpose while you're trying to find your own or you've
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just forsaken your own.
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And that's never going to work out because like back to my earlier point, we're all individuals.
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We're all unique individuals at that.
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And what their success looks like may be different from yours and how they got to it is definitely
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going to be different from you, from you and trying to replicate it, trying to seize it
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for yourself, you know, whether you literally do it at what Lauren did and kill Alan, try
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to take his stuff or you just try to replicate somebody else to get the results that they
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have.
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Then it's just not, it's just not going to work because what works for them doesn't,
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isn't going to work for you.
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Not necessarily.
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Now you, some parts of it may, um, I, that you can, you can kind of dissect and take
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it and apply to your own life, but essentially it's, it's not going to be the same result.
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It's just not because again, we're all unique in our own way.
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We all have our own skillsets.
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We all have our own shortcomings.
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We have our own personalities, you know, different upbringing, you know, there's so many different
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factors that can happen, uh, in the course of our lifetime.
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And I mean, honestly to me, that makes it all the more special because you get to do
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something that no one else can possibly do because no one else is you.
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But if you get so blind by the jealous, by jealousy and just of the success and all the
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great things someone else has accomplished in their lives, then you're never going to
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be able to move forward because you're too busy people watching, right?
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Instead of moving your feet, your eyes are glued to the screen all the time, whether
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you're scrolling, you know, liking commenting off all this different things, which you're
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not doing anything for yourself.
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Right.
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And I want you to really get out of that head space of just being a consumer, change your
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identity from being a consumer and to be someone who produces something, whatever, whatever
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it is, right.
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It can be your own, your own brand new clothes line or something like that.
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Or maybe you make paper airplanes, you know, really well, I don't know, you know, just,
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just something, right.
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It's something and show the world your uniqueness and your beauty that, that, you know, that
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God's given you.
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Cause we were getting, we're all our own.
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Oh, like I say, every episode, we're all, we're all our own main characters in our story.
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Right.
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And as long as you have breath in your lungs, your story is still going on.
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So why waste it being a side character in someone else's storyline?
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Seriously, why be, why would you willingly be a side character?
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Why not be the main character, main protagonist, main hero or hero heroine in your own story?
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Yeah.
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That's how I want to live my life.
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I want to be someone else's side character.
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Cause you've seen enough in this podcast talk about anime, but in any type of show, if you
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see enough, you see enough of the shows, you understand what happens to side characters.
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Unless you're the best friend of the main character, then you're, you know, your, your,
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your lifespan is on, is on a ticking clock.
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So but yeah, so I just really, really want you guys to take charge and be the main characters
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of your life.
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And so that brings me to the last character I want to cover in this special episode is
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Mia who was Lauren's daughter.
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So Mia is, like I said earlier, she's a telekinetic, so she, she has psychic powers, you know,
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more or less.
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And it's kind of funny, you know, a little tidbit, you know, ninjas versus whoever the
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agent, you know, martial arts, weapons, ninjutsu, all that stuff to modern day psychic and,
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and robots and stuff like that.
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It was, it was pretty cool to see in, in, in the one movie.
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But for Mia, her identity was kind of wrapped up in having the sense of belonging.
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She wanted to feel accepted and appreciated, but mostly accepted and loved at first was
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by her peers.
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And so when she was a child, of course, kids can be cruel at times.
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They were making fun of her because she was different because she had her powers and things
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like that.
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And, and so she was, she was telling her father about it.
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And that was his, that's when he had his bright idea to use her as a weapon, use her as his
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golden ticket to, you know, shoot to scientific fame and fame and stardom.
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But Mia was just really just confiding in her father, someone who's supposed to be there
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to protect her and help her get through these types of things.
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But instead he twisted that relationship they had into something that was only benefiting
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him.
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And in the process, she, she went along with her father's experiment because she wanted
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that love from him.
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She wanted to feel essentially needed, essentially to feel needed by him.
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And it's just, it's, it's so, it's terrible to honestly think about.
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I mean, I was feeling sick just watching when I watched the movie because it was, it was
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just so sad how he's twisting his, twisting his words around it.
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And cause she truly believed in him.
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Mia truly believed in her father that there was some good left in him and that, you know,
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he could, he could change his ways that he can be better.
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But at every, at every point, every time he just put a foot in the mouth and lied and
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just ultimately betrayed her over and over again and constantly using her.
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And eventually just how Mia, she just became lost in, in helping her father.
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She became a shell of, I can't even say who she was because she, she wasn't even old enough
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to establish who she was yet because she was a child.
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So she never got the chance to discover who she is and outside of just being this, this
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weapon for her father to use.
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And that's, that's what her life was up until she met Rika.
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And the sad part is the first time they met is when Mia was helping her father kill Rika's
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father, you know, against her will.
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Cause Lauren has this little electro collar that he puts on Mia that allows him to essentially
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control her, control her powers and things like that.
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And so back when then everything went down, she wasn't in her right mind when essentially
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she helped kill Rika's father.
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So of course, when all this was brought to light, you can best believe Rika wasn't too
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thrilled, especially because before that her and Mia actually developed a friendship together
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and through Rika, Mia was able to start discovering who she was as a person.
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But again, when it came to light that Mia was the one who helped kill her, kill her
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father, Rika was, you know, she was out for blood at that point.
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And you know, and, but needless to say, Rika didn't kill Mia and then they ultimately worked
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together to help be Lauren.
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But again, it was with that meeting with Rika that Mia began to see that she was more than
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just her father's puppet.
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She began to realize there's more out there than just doing what he says all the time
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and just helping him out with his empty promises and empty, you know, just, just aside of him
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just being a terrible father, essentially.
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And after, after everything's all said and done, you know, the, the movie's wrapping up
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and Mia, Rika and then another one of their friends are going on to the next, to the next
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big bad.
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And Mia, actually, she doesn't have that feeling that she needed to belong anymore because
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now she belongs somewhere with Rika, who's the only friend, the only companion she's
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had her entire life.
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And, and of course in conjunction with the other, you know, androids and things like
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that.
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But it, if she's going from being essentially bullied to being manipulated and used to finally
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being able to come into her own and have people that surrounds her that cares about her, that,
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that in that short, you know, in the short span of time that we actually get to see Mia's
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background and things like that, you can see how powerful people have, how powerful people
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are in influencing you and influencing your personality and things like that, especially
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from a young age.
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And that's going to be as, as humans, we're all, we're social creatures, right?
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We actually thrive in community, whether some of us may admit it or not.
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I know for me, I'm more of a loner most times, but I do enjoy the, the companionship of other
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people, you know, my family, my friends and things like that.
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And again, who you surround yourself with is ultimately who you're going to become.
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All right.
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That would lead to saying is what you, you're more like the five most people that you spend
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the most time with something like that.
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And that's why it's important to pick, you pick people that you associate with very carefully
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and make sure that they have your best interests out at heart.
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It doesn't mean that they agree with you all the time is, but they have your best interests
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and they'll tell you about yourself when you need to be told.
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But they also uplift you when you need uplifting, you know, they help guide and direct you and
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not mislead or mistreat you or just use you outright.
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Like what Lauren did to Mia and that's, and so when you surround yourself with some loving
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people like that, we'll all have the same goal, same or same mindset, actually not same
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goal, but same mindset and who are just there to help one another.
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Then you can, you, you'll, you're going to flourish, they're going to flourish and all
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in all is just, it's being that type of person, being someone who, who can help people, not
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because they feel obligated to, because they want to, because they genuinely want to see
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you thrive and to succeed and to help you get past whatever it is that you're facing.
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And that, I mean, that's the type of person I'm striving to be.
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You know, I'm not quite there yet, but I'm taking it, taking it day by day as best as
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I can.
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And that's pretty much it.
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That's all I can do in all, in all honesty.
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And that's all any of us can do is just to try, you know, put forth the effort and, you
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know, just bunker down and do it and don't, and don't be caught up in what you used to
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be or what people are telling you that you are, but really dig deep and reflect and really
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understand who you are and who you've been called to be.
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Cause then you go back to the verse and saying, you know, if you're, those of us who were
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in Christ, essentially we're, we're born anew, you know, we're, we're a new creation and
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that's the truth, right?
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The moment you decide to stop being who you are currently or who you were, and you decide
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to make that change, you decide to go for, you reconcile with yourself and understand
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the different aspects of your personality, who you are.
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And you're not so obsessed with what other people are doing, what they may say, what
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they might think, how successful they are, just down the third.
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And you're not surrounding yourself with people who only look at you as either like a burden
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or as a cash cow or whatever it is, something that only benefits them.
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Then, Hey, you, you'll be sitting pretty, you know, get around people who have your
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best interests at heart and you have their best interests at heart.
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You know, don't worry about what everybody else is doing and Hey, you accept you for
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you because if you don't accept you, no one else will.
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And that's, you know, that's this whole episode was the long way of saying that, that right
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there is that you have to accept who you are and who you want to be.
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You have to decide who you want to be and accept that from, you know, the good, the
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bad and the ugly and just move forward.
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Some step at a time, day by day and breath by breath, right?
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As long as you got breath in your lungs and it's not over.
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So that's it.
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Just want to thank you guys again for tuning into today's episode.
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I pray that you get what you needed out of it and that you learn something new about
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yourself and that you just take the time to reflect into really, really dig deep and find
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out who you are.
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What's your identity?
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Who, who are you and who do you want to be?
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Right.
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So feel free to subscribe to the podcast and leave a review because again, I would love
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to read, read to read you guys' comments and it will help me improve each and every episode
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so I can get better and better.
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And always remember you want to make character your story and that story doesn't end until
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he says so.
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All right.
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Be blessed.
